What Motherhood Has Taught Me: A Series Pt. 3

Guest Blog Post By: Sarah Macias

Motherhood, so far, has taught me that it’s okay to come undone. And it’s only been 5 months. Ha!

Being a wife, daughter, sister, friend, and employee was already hard, but add becoming a mom to the mix and it got even more wild. My schedule changed literally overnight and my alone time became nonexistent. The baby doesn’t do what she’s “supposed” to do according to the books and the baby whispering bloggers. Everything became too much for me to handle really quickly and I’m only just starting to realize that IT’S OKAY.

In all honesty, I think that if I had it all together something would be very wrong. If I had it all together, where would my need for God be? Where would my need for any sort of relationship at all be? While I’d be happy with not feeling as stressed or overwhelmed, I’m not interested in perfection, and I’m working on getting to that point! But I’m only able to work towards that after coming completely undone. Admitting defeat and simply saying, “I don’t know how to do this!” while crying on all the unexpected shoulders of friends who were long forgotten until I became a mother myself, was the turning point. It was a truly humbling experience to be so vulnerable in front of so many other women who seemingly had it all together. Only to realize that they themselves had also gone through “the undoing.”

As I’m only just beginning to come out on the other side of all that is postpartum, I’ve decided that it’s not only okay to come undone, but it’s necessary. I only began to grow into the role of mom once I dropped all my defenses, cried a little (or a lot), talked to way too many people about my struggle, and decided to keep on going anyways.